Devious Journal Entry

How long has it been since I stopped coming back here? I feel like I should explain where I've been. I want everyone to know that you can always add me on tumblr if you also frequent there. My username there is also WhiteRoseMarie. I'm going to go into a brief explanation of where I've been but nothing deep. Just a warning that some of it is really unpleasant, but that's up to you if you want to read it.

So, I guess I'll start off by saying that things got really bad for me, but that I've come out of it better than I ever have been. I lived in depression since the time I was 9 and only got out when I turned 20. I'm about to be 22 now.

Part of what pushed me to therapy is I completely melted down after my mother's back surgery. Through therapy, a lot of things began to pop up. I finally worked through my sexual assault that happened at Sugoicon2012. I also got out of the relationship I was in. To put it shortly, I never realized until too late what had happened. It started off kinda slow where she had begun to hit me and there wasn't any consent for what was happening behind closed doors. After we broke up, I basically lost contact with everyone and everything because she had managed to separate my friends and family from me, so that took awhile to get back. But I went to therapy for 2 years and I've been doing amazing. I did change my major during that time due to the breakdown. I do miss being in Art but now I'm in Family Studies and I'll be graduating next semester. I still draw, I just don't post it anywhere because I had become really un-confident in my art when other people were viewing it. I may post on tumblr some day or make one for it. I've improved a lot from what is left behind here on DA.

I miss a lot of you. I miss the art here. I just don't fully like using DA anymore. I'm not sure why, I just don't. It's like a different world from where I'm at now.

In a few months I'll be moving back to Oregon. Kentucky has become somewhat of a pain to live in. Mom and her boyfriend went through a lot and it has gotten bad there, but I won't elaborate on that since it would take a year to even explain what happened.

So, basically, that's that.

Oh, and I have a service animal now for PTSD. Her name's Karma.

So where can you find me if you wandered in or used to be in contact and miss me?

Tumblr: WhiteRoseMarie
Snapchat: ekoverlordess
Instagram: jc.rembis
Facebook: jen.caudill7 (let me know who you are though)
Steam: WhiteRoseMarie (Again, let me know who you are)
Skype: WhiteRoseMarie

Take care everyone.